“The key to growth is the introduction of higher dimensions of consciousness into our awareness.” -Lao Tzu, Chinese Taoist philosopher
2012 has helped me realize that I’m ready for change: personal growth intellectually, emotionally and physically.
In the past month, I’ve dealt with different relationship problems- old friends who I’m unable to rely on, new friends who aren’t worth my time and great friends who still haven’t grown up. In every situation I have questioned myself as if I was doing something wrong; or as if I were the guilty party for feeling the way I felt. I realize now that I’m just growing into the person I’m meant to be and surround myself with positive people, energy and thoughts. Everyone has their own paths but I’m just getting too old to be irresponsible, in an abusive relationship, or partying like I’m 21. At the risk of coming off like an old, frigid hag, i just believe that there is more to life then this.
I’m excited to go back to school and finish what I started because I look at myself in the mirror and know that I’m not reaching my full potential. It may have taken me more time to come to this conclusion but I know that working in middle management cannot be it for me. Maybe it took seeing my “friends” be so low to push me to reach toward the finish line, who knows? What I do know is I’m ready to dive into school again.
I know with these changes comes not only a better perception on life but it has already helped me find my emotional balance. My moods weren’t as high and low as a wavelength but I know I have needed this stability for a long time to help put everything into perspective and for lack of better words, “see the light.”
Here is to changes because my biggest mistake will be not reaching for a better me.